Being open to love, especially when you have fear and trepidation around it is the surest way to become even more open. It is when you hide your love away and deny it to yourself and others that you become cynical, negative, and a magnet for all the things that you do NOT want to attract.
Meditate, spend some time alone reflecting. Be honest with yourself in what you want and what you do NOT want. And manifest every day the person that you dream of spending your life with, picture them clearly and see yourself being with them, doing things, shopping, running, MAKING LOVE, yes FANTASIZE totally and completely. Accept that you have already attracted this person and that you have only to walk around the corner, and there they are, smiling at you.
Hey, it could happen!!! It already has!